I am 16 a male and upset because I have never had a girlfriend (Please help me)?

I am 16 in a wheelcair and have never had a girlfriend ever in my life. I don't get why the jerks all on drugs and alcohol get all the girlfriend and All they want is sex from girls, nothing else. Me I am the opposite, I am not on drugs and alcohol and I don't need sex to live. I can live my whole life without it because love is much better than sex. I am the sweetest and most respectfull and kind person towards girls. I have lots of love just going to waste right now because I am alone. I get so lonely, so lonely that I name my blanket "Krista" to hug and kiss at night, also to cuddle with. It makes me a bit happier.sometimes. I dream of the girls at my school that I think are beautiful and cute. I get upset when people hold hands and kiss. It hurts inside to look at the pretty girls at school because I don't have them as a girlfriend. I cry at night to, half the time. Yes I am in a wheelchair but that doesn't mean I can't LOVE. I have a muscle disease that will make me die around 30 or 40 years old. I have been massively depressed for the past 3 years I have been in the hospital 2 times in the past year for trying to drown myself in a lake. I do really want to die because I really hate my life that much. I don't believe in god because of the position I am in. I only want one thing in life and that is LOVE and that's the only reason I want to live. Girls say wheelchair don't matter but I think thats a lie because if that was true I would have been in love already if it was true. I also stay inside all day and after school because of my extreme shyness. I am terrified of girls and I don't know why. I am almost 17 and still have no girlfriend. I hope I get a girlfriend before its to late and I go through with my depression and finally kill myself and be free of this pain in my heart every day.